November in Vancouver, BC

A glimpse of everything in a recent, short-lived trip to Vancouver. Enjoy!

"The Road"

This video is a mix of overdue footage from the past four years of my life. It's everywhere from Shingle Springs, to NYC, to LA to Santa Barbara. It's an abstract look into my world and the vital people who are in it that make me who I am. This one is for each and every one of you.

BE KIND

Girls, Boys... whoever you may be...we matter, we ALL MATTER. Bullying needs to end! Be apart of Kind Campaign to help put an end to this horrible issue. I've known so many people who have gone through bullying growing up...The closet person to me was my twin brother....he went through hell in middle school and in high school...I just couldn't bear seeing him hurt. It's heartbreaking to see anyone go through this. My heart goes out to Jamey Rodemeyer's family and friends. This is so tragic and unfair... for all the families who have lost a loved one for this reason. I can't leave this unnoticed...
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i miss you more than my words propose

poetry video: "amicable depictions"

past

Don't know why I am posting these but they are writings from a few years back. 

so crazy how much has changed.

i'm bad at blogging.

not much to say it seems.. i'm not really sure i know whats significant enough to write. 
this is my informal attempt

Track 17- AJYS

I have a point to make I just for got where he is so please give me a minute to locate him.

I say blackish gray and of course you argue white but luckily I have no fight,  I just lay down and let you in…

What is my motivation to try and make you comprehend? When my nurses are coincidence they feed me random chance My lawyer is my fear of this as this fever comes and goes

My sisters they are potential I guess beauty is their dressBut blackened are their tongues…From the cold icy path

My thoughts not capable of spitting on this tax-free silver they’ll just do what were meant for, there’s no explaining why I’m here to stay…I just happen to have this thing where I’m alive and I’m breathing

Here’s to education, proper corporation, working occupation, from you’ll days empty children, cause I will bow and sing my praise the worship that's deserved by this vast wonderful nothing and the emptiness left behind….

Thank you world for giving me the choice to be born into you explaining all this too and also for the situation that you have blessed me with I can do so much good with this……Or just swallow complained piss…

Well here’s my smile for destiny, my cheer for a purpose, oh death is on his way forget how you may, lets unite, feel alright, as we rot as we die, can you leave me out, leave Arthur out?

Thank you brain, you make me feel like a king everyday… except those days when I’m just spray in the air that evaporates from can in a public bathroom

I am very very very important that we prolong this absurd existence and we make it all worthwhile don't mess it up cause otherwise then some other random people later on talking… think about what you did and who you do they won’t remember you the way you want them to.

I’m a link in a chain my purpose is to be strong enough to hold onto the neck but it makes no sense, barely a thought without even whennnahhhh.

self-explanatory

12:42am

this is all i see

thought process

I find it hard to believe it has been almost two years since Arthur left the world. I think about it everyday. sometimes I wonder what life would be like if time wasn't a factor. no ages, no specific time to meet someone or see something...just simple coincidental fate (whatever that means) things would seem so much simpler. I like simple. when I was little I thought that life was a movie and everyone in it were actors, definitely Truman show status. I don't know I guess I thought the world was too good to be true. that beauty couldn't possibly be this illusive, this vibrant, this vital... I took a philosophy class when I lived in Sacramento. it changed the way I viewed "life." existence. creation. my thoughts simply derived from my passions. I like understanding things i'm passionate about, otherwise it just doesn't seem to suffice. man, I really don't know what my point is. does there always have to be a fucking point? i'd say no, but then what is the point? AJYS where are you?? In the clouds, with the stars? I will meet you there. Anywhere.  I've always wondered why have I not seen a baby pigeon. seriously, where are all the baby pigeons?

quotes of the day:

"not all who wander are lost" -J.R.R Tolkien

I'll be your mirror

my art

lately, i've been feeling artsy :]

be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.

"Moon River"

"Two drifters off to see the world. There's such a lot of world to see..."

street art

street art is absolutely relevant and beautiful. i don't care what anyone says. i think we need more of it. it's a wonderful interpretation of many, with their ideas, notions, and the way they view the world. street art is shared with everyone and is an interaction between sight and mind. beauty is all around, take some time to really see it :)

arthur

This is about my best friend Arthur Smith. I feel in order to know a bit about me, you definitely should know about Arthur. I know he would have without a doubt made so much fun of me for this...then secretly love it! To put it simply, he was brilliant.  He taught me many things that are essential to this life and its means to living it. I learned that all you need are a few good friends and some time to be free.

What I love the most was that his presence was infectious. I loved that he embraced so many others. I can't even begin to explain the various people (friends/strangers) he's helped in some way, shape or form. He was a provider and needed nothing in return. I specifically recall a time when we were at BNM (CP) and he bought a kid he didn't know three brand new skate decks because he couldn't afford it. Almost always he would be the one to pick me up from light rail when I was stranded.  I remember the time he made me teach him how to do cartwheels in town center parking lot and the time he made Annie and I dumpster dive with Chris to find carpet rolls for shed two. Which then led to climbing onto rooftops of the buildings high enough to make us pee our pants, but the view was always worth it. He is unlike anyone I will ever come to know. His thoughts and ideas were so far beyond this universe, and sometimes hard to fully grasp. But we connected he and I . I am forever grateful for that. 

He left behind photos, writings, music, art, and shared it all on arthurjys.com. You see his passions through his art, music, and his love for skating. He is what shaped me and is a huge part of who I am. I am truly one of the luckiest girls in the world. 

athurjys.com

BIG WAVE

some things I like. some art I've made. some photos I've taken. enjoy :]

"Big Wave"  by jenny & johnny- on repeat

heartbeats

One night to be confused. One night to speed up truth. We had a promise made. Four hands and then away. Both under influence, we had divine scent. To know what to say. Mind is a razor blade.
To call for hands of above, to lean on. Wouldn't be good enough, for me, no.
One night of magic rush. The start, a simple touch. One night to push and scream, and then relief.
Ten days of perfect tunes. The colors, red and blue, We had a promise made, we were in love.
To call for hands of above, to lean on. Wouldn't be good enough, for me, no.
And you, you knew the hand of the Devil.
And you, kept us awake with wolf's teeth, sharing different heartbeats in one night.
To call for hands of above, to lean on. Wouldn't be good enough, for me, no.

Heartbeats - Jose González 

vintage finds

phenomena of the physical world, including plants, animals, landscape, and other features collectively. products of the earth. as opposed to humans or human creations.

song of the week

"young blood"

The Naked And Famous - Young Blood from The Naked And Famous on Vimeo.
enjoy.