poetry video: "amicable depictions"

past

Don't know why I am posting these but they are writings from a few years back. 

so crazy how much has changed.

i'm bad at blogging.

not much to say it seems.. i'm not really sure i know whats significant enough to write. 
this is my informal attempt

Track 17- AJYS

I have a point to make I just for got where he is so please give me a minute to locate him.

I say blackish gray and of course you argue white but luckily I have no fight,  I just lay down and let you in…

What is my motivation to try and make you comprehend? When my nurses are coincidence they feed me random chance My lawyer is my fear of this as this fever comes and goes

My sisters they are potential I guess beauty is their dressBut blackened are their tongues…From the cold icy path

My thoughts not capable of spitting on this tax-free silver they’ll just do what were meant for, there’s no explaining why I’m here to stay…I just happen to have this thing where I’m alive and I’m breathing

Here’s to education, proper corporation, working occupation, from you’ll days empty children, cause I will bow and sing my praise the worship that's deserved by this vast wonderful nothing and the emptiness left behind….

Thank you world for giving me the choice to be born into you explaining all this too and also for the situation that you have blessed me with I can do so much good with this……Or just swallow complained piss…

Well here’s my smile for destiny, my cheer for a purpose, oh death is on his way forget how you may, lets unite, feel alright, as we rot as we die, can you leave me out, leave Arthur out?

Thank you brain, you make me feel like a king everyday… except those days when I’m just spray in the air that evaporates from can in a public bathroom

I am very very very important that we prolong this absurd existence and we make it all worthwhile don't mess it up cause otherwise then some other random people later on talking… think about what you did and who you do they won’t remember you the way you want them to.

I’m a link in a chain my purpose is to be strong enough to hold onto the neck but it makes no sense, barely a thought without even whennnahhhh.

self-explanatory

12:42am

this is all i see

thought process

I find it hard to believe it has been almost two years since Arthur left the world. I think about it everyday. sometimes I wonder what life would be like if time wasn't a factor. no ages, no specific time to meet someone or see something...just simple coincidental fate (whatever that means) things would seem so much simpler. I like simple. when I was little I thought that life was a movie and everyone in it were actors, definitely Truman show status. I don't know I guess I thought the world was too good to be true. that beauty couldn't possibly be this illusive, this vibrant, this vital... I took a philosophy class when I lived in Sacramento. it changed the way I viewed "life." existence. creation. my thoughts simply derived from my passions. I like understanding things i'm passionate about, otherwise it just doesn't seem to suffice. man, I really don't know what my point is. does there always have to be a fucking point? i'd say no, but then what is the point? AJYS where are you?? In the clouds, with the stars? I will meet you there. Anywhere.  I've always wondered why have I not seen a baby pigeon. seriously, where are all the baby pigeons?

quotes of the day:

"not all who wander are lost" -J.R.R Tolkien